I am taking a much needed bloggy break and thought it would be fun to take a walk down memory lane. This post was originally published on October 27, 2008. Enjoy!
Just for today, I will not worry.
Just for today, I will be grateful.
Just for today, I will earn an honest living and devote myself to my work.
Just for today, I will be compassionate to myself and others.
Today something occurred to me. Like really occurred to me. You know, the light bulb moment–where you kind of stare into space, and something in your mind makes that “click” sound, then you and your perspective is moved into a different level of existence.
Yes…that kind of moment.
After school the Music teacher and I sat in her room talking. What started out as an upbeat conversation, fell into the usual drab and yuck that lines the walls of my place of employment. You got it…the N word: negativity.
I won’t bore you (again) with the same details….I’ll jump right to the juicy part….the part where the light goes on in Connie’s brain!!
It fully occurred to me today that WE CREATE OUR OWN BARRICADES AND WE ARE THE ONLY ONES THAT CAN TEAR THEM DOWN.
Yep, period. End of story. But don’t just read it…marinate in it…soak it up like a sponge, suck it down like a smoothie, swish it around your soul like it was Listerine!!! Seriously—this is the secret to our happiness…and the secret to our suffering…all in let me count….16 bold faced words.
We create barricades from our creativity, our heart, our dreams, loved ones, potential loved ones, our spirit, and from living our life to the fullest. We create them. Us. You and me. Now, I don’t create them for you…how could I? I don’t have time when I’m constructing my own. But here’s the one thing we all have in common…we all share the same contractor for building these barricades…you would think with all the business he would be over booked…but no, he still finds time to work around the clock…24-7, no holidays or vacations! That contractor that we all employ is good ol’ Mr. Fear.
Now, I go through my life thinking and believing that I’m pretty fearless. Until today. I realized that some of these barricades in my life were actually created by Fear…I just didn’t know it…because I decided to stick a different label on it…like:
“I don’t have enough money.”
“I need health insurance.”
“I don’t know where to start.”
“I don’t have enough time.”
“I don’t have enough energy.”
But after I pulled the little sticker away guess what I found? FEAR written all over it! The barricades in my life are all constructed completely out of fear.
Simple, right? We all get this. We all hear this alot…on Oprah, on blogs, in books, maybe even with good friends or teachers. But here’s the thing that hit me. It all comes down to believing. Believing fully that something that is so much bigger then ourselves. Believing fully in that force that keeps thing in order, in line. How many of you go to bed at night in a panic if the sun will rise tomorrow? How many of you worry if we’ll run out of air to breathe? If the grass will stop growing? If flowers will stop blooming? The universe takes care of things. We just simply believe without even doubting it. The universe keeps the planets in line, the atmosphere in tack…it takes care of the big things…then why can’t I surrender my dreams and wishes…and believe it can take care of little ol’ me too?
That’s it. That’s the juicy part..the pulp of the matter. Trusting that the universe will take care of little ol’ us.
We just have to ask. Surrender. Put it out there. Really make our wishes and dreams a tiny star in the galaxy…and then let the universe take care of the rest.
Sounds to easy to be true? Might be. But today I got it…and I’m about to surrender…and see what happens next.
Peace & Love.